Day 4

This is not as easy as i was hoping. Things that you think you can change sometimes can be hard. I know people say to pray from the bible but i have never understood what they ment or how to use the words of GOD to pray. I have read verses here and there when others point them out. It's going to be a change to start memorizing verses and praying them. But it all takes time i guess. The course i am reading suggests starting with the book of John. Guess it won't hurt to start there since i have never read the bible much. It's going to be an adjustment but i just have to fine a time and way that works for me. My family and myself are worth the work.

Day 1 June 20, 2012

*I started this on a note pad a few days ago so this is back dated to when it took place. Thought this would be a more interesting way for family and friends to be kept up to date.*

Going through this is something i truly am scarred about. I know Jesus is the savour brought to bring us closer to GOD but how do i live a life for GOD that will be pleasing to HIM? How does someone sacrifice their own child to help all man kind? That is something I truly don't understand. I know GOD wanted us to be close to HIM but to give his own son...that is beyond love and a desire for man to be with him again. That is the ultimate sacrifice. To add to it Jesus willingly gave his life for our salvation. He didn't have to but did with love. How do I thank someone for such a great gift? And is a simple prayer all it takes to bring Christ into your heart? If so why do so many people not do it? And why do those that do pray those words sometimes find themselves lost again? I believe it's takes much much more. It takes an open and willing heart with faith and dedication to a life change. This is a life change and a scarry one for me. Temptation and lust are my weaknesses. Lust for another person other then my love. Temptation of pleasures forbidden by GOD. I must stay strong and overcome my weaknesses in order to truly be close to GOD and to truly love my family as they deserve. I never thought to turn to GOD during times of temptation and ask for things outside of what is tempting me. I know people have said to turn to GOD but i never knew how without it being about resisting the temptation and it usually ended with me giving into temptation. I need to learn to build a relationship with GOD and learn to rely on him to guide me. I also need to learn to go to GOD when i do mess up.  Keep in mind Christ is ALWAYS there, you are never alone.